I am used to thinking about myself as a reasonable and sensible person. Well, I’m used to.

The events of the the last 8 days show me that the anxiety I’ve experienced before was very mild and insignificant. Now I’m angry, sad, annoyed, irritated, anxious and tired all at once.

And the scariest part is that i feel I literally cannot do anything. I can watch, I can close my eyes, the picture won’t change. So I am going to live the life, as long as I can do it. Do your duty and let what should happen happen.

About 2 weeks ago I started drawing fun shapes over random pictures. The mood has changed, but this exercise really helps me relax. So I will keep doing it.